Hello…
My name is Donna and this is my blog, as the kids say. I’m not very fond of that word; I think because it isn’t very lyrical, but such is life. I’m not very computer savvy, not particularly political, nor do I live a life filled with absolutes. I don’t enjoy complaining about society, or pop culture, or traffic, or the weather, or gas prices, my job, or reality television.
In fact, other than the occasional, but inevitable, sabotage by faulty brain chemistry, my life is exactly what I want. I have a very strong and loving marriage. I write books, and make music and travel with my partner. When my life settles into a routine I’m not pleased with, I work to change it.
Well, goody for you, jerk, you might be thinking.
But it’s not all rainbows and tiny magical ponies made of gold. You see, the reason I don’t often complain about the world around me is because the worst offender of all lives in my head. Years of therapy and currently, Lexapro, have worked wonders, but the storm is always brewing; the tape is always looping. This is my OCD existence (colloquially- crazy brain). I know now, at thirty-five, that I will probably never be able to function properly without medication, and I am ok with this.
So, here I am. I take my pills and do my best to keep the loops focused on things that I love, because if I don’t, the tapes will play some very ugly, very terrifying things. And they will not stop until I have become ugly, too.
Consequently, I am compelled to love many things. Some, very lovable (baby goats). Others, not so much (abandoned quarries). But these things are what save me. I weave them into the things I make, and around me like a blanket. My husband is a gracious soul because he agreeably lives in this nest of maps, and mines, bizarre animals, fairy tales, books, hidden rivers, haunted places, biological anomalies, and varied religious icons with me, and seems to feel quite at home with it all. Our mythologies, it turns out, are not so different. We drink from the same well.
So, in writing this, I’d hoped to figure out exactly what purpose this blog will serve, and I suppose I have. This will be the place where I write about the things that keep me sane and happy to be in the world. There are many, so there should be no shortage of words here. I just hope there will still be enough time for me to post obsessively on Facebook.
I know I probably can’t live without meds either – it’s just how life goes.
Hope to see you guys again soon
It will be interesting to see what you feel keeps you sane. I know that some of what keeps me going is not what the funny men in the white coats would like me to think about, but hey, them’s the breaks. Now the pictures you guys have of said quarries, natural structures, and (sometimes) abandoned human sites are very interesting, poignant, and well worth sharing, at least I find a lot to think about in what you’ve put out there in image, word, and song.
You are not perfect Donna. And neither am I, or anyone else. But it is interesting to read about your thoughts. And you are a very good writer. I’m lucky to have you as a friend.
Glad to see you’ve got a blog, since I’m not on that facebook contraption (it’s too newfangled? yet blogs aren’t?).
Anyhow, looking forward to reading!
Thanks, guys!
I’m 37 and will probably be on medication as well for the rest of my life as well. It means a lot that you put yourself out there…I of course still keep my medication and issue ‘hidden’ from most people. I look forward to your blogs, post, writings and albums
Glad you have this space. Looking forward to it.
It will be interesting to see what you feel keeps you sane. I know that some of what keeps me going is not what the funny men in the white coats would like me to think about, but hey, them’s the breaks. Now the pictures you guys have of said quarries, natural structures, and (sometimes) abandoned human sites are very interesting, poignant, and well worth sharing, at least I find a lot to think about in what you’ve put out there in image, word, and song.
Well, goody for you, jerk.
But, seriously – you are an awesome woman, and I’m glad that you’re finding and living your happy.
I know I probably can’t live without meds either – it’s just how life goes.
Hope to see you guys again soon
You are not perfect Donna. And neither am I, or anyone else. But it is interesting to read about your thoughts. And you are a very good writer. I’m lucky to have you as a friend.